Thursday, July 24, 2008

Just an all round sad week

Emotionally this has not been a good week and today has been one of my worst.

It's the 4th anniversary of my darling Big Brother Glyn's passing. Glyn was affectionately known as Max, after the character in the Mad Max movies as he was a crazy kind of person. The things that boy and I could get up to. I was 12 years older than him, but from the day he was born it never mattered. We were the best of friends and always together.

We were in the same bike club and on this day 4 years ago I had gone to have my hair done in the afternoon. I coloured it black with pink streaks. I was on barduty at our clubhouse and just before we closed he left to go to a friend's pub where we were all to meet. He stood on the step, looked round and said "Sister Person you're beautiful and I love you madly." I replied that I loved him tooooooo much. Little did I know that within 15 minutes I was just going to lose 5 weeks of my life, but one of the most important parts of my being.

On his way a drunk driver ignored a red traffic light and hit Max (on his bike) at more than 140km/h. We took a slightly different route to the destination and when I got there I heard that he had been in an accident. From there I lost all sense of time and reality.

Max was a practical joker and used to put stones in my coffee, leaves in my drink and he used to love licking me in the face and over my specs when I wore them. Last night I was shutting my computer down, when Corné (the man in my life) came up to me and licked me. Before I could shout at him for being stupid he said "Max told me to do it." This morning I woke up and on reflection remembered that at that given time 4 years ago, Max and I had our last conversation. Well that just set me off for the rest of the day. I have been sobbing on and off the entire day. I still miss him so much.

But I remember all our silliness and how much trouble we used to get into with fond memories. This is a LO I did of Max last year when KIM brought out her Forgotten Not kit. The pic with him sucking the pacifier was when we held a baby shower for him just before my nephew Justin was born. It was one of those whacked crazy days as not many men have a babyshower, but he took to it like a duck to water and had us in stitches.

Darling Max, your favourite thing you always said to me was "I'm watching you." and after last night I know you still do. Ride the skyways until we meet again.

Now on to some FUN stuff. Kim has once again come up with the MOST STUPENDOUS CU Grab Bag. It is so full of wonderful stuff you won't know where to start playing first. Well I centainly was at a loss to begin with. Here's a LO I did with some of the goodies in the bag.

You can get it here and at $8 for $40's worth of goodies for 1 week only, it's the bargain of a lifetime.

I've been playing with some new design toys and came up with this orchid flower cluster as your freebie today.

You can get it here Enjoy.

Have a great day.


Kari ~ Relocated Dixie Girl said...

AWWWWWWWWW Renee. *great big huggles* I'm sorry sweetie. I, too, have zero tolerance for anyone who drinks & drives. Too many people close to me have been killed or hurt that way.

Kim B said...

HI my friend. First I apologise for not coming by sooner-and with all that's been going on I actually forgot the date. I'm sorry- I knew it was this month as its the same month as my Ma- just not the day! I understand where you are coming from entirely! Sending you HUGE HUGE hugs. Just to let you know that your orchids are DIVINE! Golly gosh girl- LOVE THEM! and thank you for your *plug* on the bag- LOVE your LO's you have done with it.
Thinking of you

.: Kristine :. said...

Sending big Canadian hugs your way darlin'!!


Maria said...

Thank you! Your blog post will be advertised on the DigiFree Digital Scrapbooking Freebie search engine today (look for timestamp: 24 Jul [LA 11:00pm] - 25 Jul [NY 01:00am, UK 06:00am, OZ 04:00pm]).

Dawne said...

Wow Renee....~sniff~ You just absolutely toughed every nook and cranny of my heart....I don't know what to say. I know that I am still new to this great group of awesome, fun, crazy ladies, but my heart goes out to you, just the same....warm, cuddly hugs coming your way.... btw...this is Ladybug Graphix aka Dawne

Jazzy said...

Renee we have talked about losing our loved ones and you so helped me when Lori died..I dont guess we truly ever get over losing our loved ones..but I know they will always live in our hearts and we have our memories of them.. some days I can go thur the day and not think of Lori until at night..and some days I think I just cant make it thru today , it hurts to bad to miss her like this..then at times I think I feel her presence and she says Mama its ok..Im happy you be happy..she and her love of faires gave me the inspriation to try my had at making word art..she would be so thrilled because she was always telling me, mama do something to share your talent and make us some money while your at with Andrew gone the hole in my heart is even bigger..but I know he is with his mom and they are happy..I especially miss him between 5-9 everyday when the nurse left until 9 when the night nurse came on..that was when Ihad him all to myself and thats when God chose to take him, from my arms..oh wow girl..didnt mean to get so wound up..just know I KNOW exactly how you feel and I'm always here if you need to you Jazzy